Posted by Dwight-and-Aileen on Jul 14, '07 1:30 AM for Dwight-and-Aileen's contacts
i miss this site.
i miss typing away my thoughts ... my thoughts other than household chores and diapering duties ... thoughts that go beyond the "i do's" and the "u-haaa's" (marriage and baby).
while my self-imposed leave from blogging didn't really stop me from blogging (i still have nikki's site), it somehow felt that i left something behind. my thoughts, my voice ... myself. i've become a wife ... a mother ... a friend and so much more. And i think that way too. Like switching gears on a highway, i turn on "mommy mode", "wifey mode" or "buddy mode" whatever the situation calls for.
now my head is pounding. the "me" in me has been stifled, muted, gagged for so long that i often wonder, if it's still there. or have i turned sybil already?
do i even know how is it to be me once more?
just like riding a bike, you'll never forget. apparently that's true.
for the first time since i don't know how long, i sat and typed away. after the first few wobbly seconds where i stared at a black screen, my fingers started moving. just when i started thinking that perhaps i need some training wheels, words came to life. i found my balance. i found my thoughts, myself.
although i couldn't make it very far, not just yet, it felt good. so good.
i think i'll start writing here again.
i miss typing away my thoughts ... my thoughts other than household chores and diapering duties ... thoughts that go beyond the "i do's" and the "u-haaa's" (marriage and baby).
while my self-imposed leave from blogging didn't really stop me from blogging (i still have nikki's site), it somehow felt that i left something behind. my thoughts, my voice ... myself. i've become a wife ... a mother ... a friend and so much more. And i think that way too. Like switching gears on a highway, i turn on "mommy mode", "wifey mode" or "buddy mode" whatever the situation calls for.
now my head is pounding. the "me" in me has been stifled, muted, gagged for so long that i often wonder, if it's still there. or have i turned sybil already?
do i even know how is it to be me once more?
just like riding a bike, you'll never forget. apparently that's true.
for the first time since i don't know how long, i sat and typed away. after the first few wobbly seconds where i stared at a black screen, my fingers started moving. just when i started thinking that perhaps i need some training wheels, words came to life. i found my balance. i found my thoughts, myself.
although i couldn't make it very far, not just yet, it felt good. so good.
i think i'll start writing here again.
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theresehabana wrote on Jul 19, '07
yey!!! yey!!! i should have tagged you hahaha! =P
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ragenstevart wrote on Jul 19, '07
hurray!!! yen welcome back...although i wasnt part of your original circle, im so privileged to be reading you now=)
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dwightnyen wrote on Jul 20, '07
thanks guys! *bow* hehehe! *hugs back* i miss me too. toink! =)
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