Posted by Dwight-and-Aileen on Mar 22, '06 11:59 AM for Dwight-and-Aileen's network
too swift for those who fear
too long for those who grieve,
too short for those who rejoice,
but for those who love, time is eternity."
- Henry Van Dyke
time sure is a funny thing ... sometimes it drags on ever so slowly, like a heavy chain around your ankle, as if feeling the weight of the changing world around you. other times it just flits on ... silently, like a light cool breeze across our face, barely noticing it except that for a while it felt so good. and how about the times it careens by, speeding by, quickly, like a blur leaving us surprised, off-guard of its occurrence.
of course, there is the waiting aspect of time too. waiting for a phone call. waiting for the mail. waiting for the party to start. waiting for the weekend to finally get here. waiting for the big event, the vacation, a movie, a letter, for somebody.
we oftentimes spend too much of our lives waiting .. and too little of our lives enjoying the moment. i know i sometimes do miss that part of the waiting process. somehow, it's got to change. patience is a virtue i don't have ... but it's well worth trying.
like now, i've been waiting ... no not waiting, let's say looking forward ..... to so many things happening over the next few days ... and months. my next doctor's appointment ..... feeling my baby kick & move in my tummy .... meeting up with dwight's high school friends this weekend .... monday lunch with an old friend .... seeing a really good friend walk down the aisle on her big day .... a yaya get-together .... seeing big boy akio play ring bearer .... spending time with college buddies .... that long-awaited letter a friend promised .... waiting for my birthday.
ah, my birthday. not that there'll be a big celebration and all ... but i just realized I'm less than a month away from turning 30.
30 people. 3.0.
not that i'm freaking out or something ... but this realization has lead to a great deal of soul searching ... and navel gazing (something i've recently found myself constantly doing. hahhaha.)
i realize that 30 is not that big a deal. i've witnessed a handful (2 handfuls) of my friends embrace the new decade of our lives with much more grace and aplomb (or lack thereof) than i have in my little finger. of course, most of them already have established careers or businesses or families or a couple of kids enough to fill a minivan. in many ways, i haven't changed a bit ... except of course, i no longer live with my parents. plus i have more responsibilities than i ever had before. i still ask myself questions every now and then though. before i used to ask, will i ever graduate? will i ever find work? will i ever get married? will i ever have kids?
now the questions are, will i be good mom, do i even know how to raise kids, am i a good wife ... am i grown up enough to handle all these?
i guess i'm not quite done yet with my navel gazing, err, soul searching .... with time in my hands, i guess, again, i'll just have to wait and see.
of course, there is the waiting aspect of time too. waiting for a phone call. waiting for the mail. waiting for the party to start. waiting for the weekend to finally get here. waiting for the big event, the vacation, a movie, a letter, for somebody.
we oftentimes spend too much of our lives waiting .. and too little of our lives enjoying the moment. i know i sometimes do miss that part of the waiting process. somehow, it's got to change. patience is a virtue i don't have ... but it's well worth trying.
like now, i've been waiting ... no not waiting, let's say looking forward ..... to so many things happening over the next few days ... and months. my next doctor's appointment ..... feeling my baby kick & move in my tummy .... meeting up with dwight's high school friends this weekend .... monday lunch with an old friend .... seeing a really good friend walk down the aisle on her big day .... a yaya get-together .... seeing big boy akio play ring bearer .... spending time with college buddies .... that long-awaited letter a friend promised .... waiting for my birthday.
ah, my birthday. not that there'll be a big celebration and all ... but i just realized I'm less than a month away from turning 30.
30 people. 3.0.
not that i'm freaking out or something ... but this realization has lead to a great deal of soul searching ... and navel gazing (something i've recently found myself constantly doing. hahhaha.)
i realize that 30 is not that big a deal. i've witnessed a handful (2 handfuls) of my friends embrace the new decade of our lives with much more grace and aplomb (or lack thereof) than i have in my little finger. of course, most of them already have established careers or businesses or families or a couple of kids enough to fill a minivan. in many ways, i haven't changed a bit ... except of course, i no longer live with my parents. plus i have more responsibilities than i ever had before. i still ask myself questions every now and then though. before i used to ask, will i ever graduate? will i ever find work? will i ever get married? will i ever have kids?
now the questions are, will i be good mom, do i even know how to raise kids, am i a good wife ... am i grown up enough to handle all these?
i guess i'm not quite done yet with my navel gazing, err, soul searching .... with time in my hands, i guess, again, i'll just have to wait and see.
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mangobox20 wrote on Mar 23, '06
haaay time.... hehe =)
advance happy birthday yen! your baby is the best birthday gift you ever got. =) *hugs* |
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it's one of the most beautiful blessings, yen -- the TIME we've been given... to love, to play, to raise kids, to study, to laugh, to marry, to have lunch with friends, to hug, to live, to touch someone's life, to forgive, to start over, to navel gaze (aw, soul search diay), to watch your tummy grow big and your baby grow up... isn't this TIME a wonderful thing, and even more a wonderful "moment"? looking forward to meeting you. at the perfect time. =) *bear hug*
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theresehabana wrote on Mar 30, '06
navel gazing hehehe!!! what to do, when you have all the time in the world?
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dwightnyen wrote on Mar 31, '06
hehehe! who would have thought this year would bring in a lot of good things to us, di ba? *wink* *wink* dah oi, hapit na ang May!!!! mupaso na ka! hehhehe! (excited kaau ko ... mura pud ako'y kaslon! hahaha!)
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dwightnyen wrote on Mar 31, '06
mangobox20 said
 advance happy birthday yen! your baby is the best birthday gift you ever got. =) *hugs* 
thanks Chelle! =) that's so true ... the best birthday (christmas, new year, valentine, anniversary ug uban pa) gift ever! *grin*
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dwightnyen wrote on Mar 31, '06
so true Ai! and yet. it's one of the many things we often take for granted ....
so looking forward to meeting you too .... how about this May??? (pressure! hehehehe!) |
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dwightnyen wrote on Mar 31, '06
hahhaha! mao gyud Che! plus, i'm just constantly amazed (or shall i say amused! hahhaha!) at the changes with my navel! kabalo gyud ka kay you've been here before! *lol*
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theresehabana wrote on Mar 31, '06
hehehe bitaw! lingaw man na yen. naghuwat gyud ko kanus-a sya mobudlot wa man nuon. nipikot lang.
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dwightnyen wrote on Mar 31, '06
theresehabana said
hehehe bitaw! lingaw man na yen. naghuwat gyud ko kanus-a sya mobudlot wa man nuon. nipikot lang.
hahhaha! kolokoy man ka che oi! wala lang, nahibung lang ko kay at first pwerte lawma ... then karon ni-mabaw na. wonder what's next! hehhehe! klaro kaayo wa ko'y lingaw noh? *lol*
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